July 14th, 2006

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well, it seems that lately I've been drifting away from some of my closest friends, brian, anh, and sarah. for the most part, me and brian and anh are still friends, we just don't hang out as much. as for sarah, I don't really know. I wish I knew, but I don't. I just know we really aren't talking right now, for reasons I wish I really understood. she's not really disappointed though, I can tell. not like I am. she's still got brian to keep her happy, and I'm happy for them. ever since they started dating, I knew that I would be replaced by brian as the boy she cared for the most, and I, being her best friend, would just have to watch from the sidelines and they prance around and about in their careless, "young and in love" mind. I wish I had someone to call my own, someone who I too, could share those feelings with. someone to keep me company on these warm summer nights. someone to share my deepest, most inner thoughts with. someone that I can confide in. someone that will tell me they love me as much as I love them.
someone that probably doesn't exist.